Let the wild rumpus start!

1. Italics= going bad, hurry
2. bold = alert will go bad fast, hurry

• cantaloupe
• lemon
• romaine lettuce
• red peppers
• mushrooms
• blueberries
• alfalfa sprouts
• sweet potatoes
• cabbage
• carrots (small and large)
• beets
• beet greens
• head of lettuce
• kale
• cucumber
• cherry tomatoes
• turnips
• celery
• apples
• bananas new
• banana old
• acorn squash
• nectarines
• yellow squash
• cauliflower
• avacadoes

• other
• barley
• quinoa
• whole chicken
• lunchmeat
• tortillas (large flour ones)
• yogurt (Greek and regular)

So, Saturday I ate at Mom’s– a delicious meal and really, really healthy– beets, ham, sweet potatoes, etc. etc. I was pretty proud of this meal.

However, I overate in the evening because there was chocolate on top of the fridge and I had some cheese.

On Sunday I ate at our house and Brian made some Salmon Chowder and some egg salad and I made some clean cornbread. Again I was pretty proud of myself

However, on Monday I had popcorn and coke and LOTs and LOTs of reese’s pieces when I went to see the Alvin and the Chipmunks (the Squeakuel– lovely movie by the way).

• Sunday I worked out 30 minutes;
• Monday I worked out a hard 45 minutes;
• Tuesday I worked out 45 minutes on elliptical, treadmill, and rowing machine (but not too hard on any single one).

It’s very sickening to work so hard on all the pieces and then not be able to control the binging enough to make it worth it!!!!

WHat can I do about this!!

Addendum (1/21/10– Thursday) Seeing the same thing later in the week. Wednesday night I was pretty much on track, but then 3/4 C of macaroni and cheese 870 calories or some sh** like that. Rats!

I’m working on my own little supposition (entirely non-factual): that it takes 3 days for the food that goes into my mouth to become part of me. So, after I eat 870 extra calories on Wednesday, the damage will show up about Saturday. Any good I do for myself on Thursday won’t show up until Sunday. It’s all about delayed satisfaction, which is not my forte. I’m good for today as long as I don’t go over, um, 700-800 kcals. Would be also very nice if I could work out in 15 minute intervals….

Today I’m thinking about fear and how ridiculous it is in my life and how much I would like to get rid of it.

And the thought that love is the anti-fear. Hmmm, what a drag it is that I can’t internalize this more. Shame on me for that weakness.

There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear. -I John 4:18

“The single most important decision any of us will ever make is whether or not to believe the universe is friendly.”     Albert Einstein

• seasoned pepper Babbs
• grapes(organic) Co-op
• craisins Babbs
• lactaid (2x)Babbs or Co-op
• dried tomatoes (not in oil) Babbs or Marsh
• green thing (after the spinach is gone….) use spinach
• soup bones (for Dog)– Babbs or March
• lactaid
• milk
• coffee filters
• cat food
• lactaid fat free
• puppy food
• beets
• hoosier honey
• tortillas?? make? can’t find 100% whole grain ones
• rutabaga
• or turnip
• or parsnip
• or squash
• kale or mustard greens (2 batches)
• raisins–co-op 2 qty.
• prunes
• morton salt iodized
• italian seasoning bulk co-op
• kleenex
• natural dishwasher soap co-op
• string cheese (white organic from co-op)
• kleenex
• sauerkraut– try rinsing and boiling in H2O for a little bit and try with
• vegetarian sausage and onions
• fat free cottage cheese
• B-12
• Mayonnaise
• tomatoes (any kind fresh)
• mushrooms (fresh)
• tic tacs
• dish detergent
• jelly (all fruit)
• coffee
• butter (smart balance (Lite?))
• saltines
• BETTER than boullion
• parmesan cheese (block is cheaper)
• grapes
• jelly (not sugar free)
• Nuts only a few
• hummus
• solar salt
• kitty food
• dog food
• trash bags
• borax
• bleach
• Kitty litter!
• fingerling potatoes
• tangerines
• bananas
• blueberries
• iron pills

later to buyGet one item every $1000.00 that goes into the savings….

1.  exercize bra–DONE $5000.00
2. athletic socks– DONE $paid off car
3. black socks and brown socks and toe hose (Next on list at $1000.00)
4. merrills– Done $paid off car
5. bike exercizer thing for bri’s bike
6. bose speakers (the kind that block out other noise)
7. dremel diamond tool (the kind that will put holes in my glass)
8. olive oil spray bottle
9. RedHat linux
10. splitter for tv
11. 3-way plug adaptor
12. extension cord
13. new toshiba battery= DONE (@$3000.00 savings)
14. size 10 pants (10x?) for Mary=DONE (@$4000.00 savings)
15. real soup bones for puppy
16. mattress & box springs for Mary
17. Sprouting seeds (broccoli specifically) and sprouting hardware
18. USB (cute kind) for me to lug back and forth to and from work
19. download SQL software to laptop (or maybe to Stu’s new computer….)
20. homosote
21. expanding file for B-
22. coffee filters
23. trivet (etsy)–hmmm, from Marti?? take off??
24. rug for dining room elements?
25. automatice dishwasher soap
26. Cat food
27. Dog food
28. Bissell floor cleaner
29. USB– Johnny’s birthday ?????
30. um, blue air air filters
31. doggie conditioning shampoo
32. toe hose to wear with brown flats 6pr)
33. carpet/hardwood in bedrooms
34. straw
35. stone on drive
36. Colon cleanse
37. roof
38. septic (new finger)
39. doggies to vet
40. algae tablets
41. mighty dog dog food
42. tall kitchen trash bags
43. diastatis exercises http://www.maternalfitness.com/
44. um, toe hose for brown shoes
45. 4H Genealogy workbooks
46. Plat map for Liford county
47. gloves/scarf (on sale somewhere??? etsy??)
48. facial at mira
49. gas fireplace in basement
50. new college sweatshirts IU, UC, DePaul, etc.
51. schedule age intervention resurfacing facial)
52. B-12
53. Dehumidifier
54. DNA Testing for Mary and Me and Brian and whoever else :); the expensive version
55. solar salt
56. kitty food
57. dog food
58. trash bags
59. borax
60. bleach
61. Kitty Litter
62. razors
63. actifed and?or benadryl
64. iron pills–done
65. String of pearls
66. toaster oven
67. medium sized pick– to dig in secret garden

1. Canned cat food 4-6 qty
2. Anti-freeze 2 qty
3. Straw/shade grass seed
4. Floss threader for Brian
5. New blinds 72″
6. 3 qty. flashlight
7. 1 solar flashlight
8. 3 dandelion diggers
9. Toe hose (shoes.com kind only)
10. v.game per allison (mCS)
11. One item also for (BWS)
12. Merrills for me
13. oxfords for me
14. 2x pink henleys
15. anti-dandruff/conditioning shampoo for geeger
16. seamstress on 10th st., pants/shorts repaired
17. 1-4x gardening gloves
18. 1-3x dandelion diggers
19. Sea foam hand towels
20. shower curtain liner
21. solar salt
22. mattress
23. box springs
24. Expanding file for Brian
25. trivet from etsy
26. Pink houseslippers forMary
27. rigid tubing for air stones
28. order Mary’s school pix
29. Take toaster oven to Stansifer radio (or call)
30. Linux red hat and trash machine to run it on
31. thumb drive/flash drive or equivalent
32. curling iron
33. jewels from Allison
34. game suggestion from allison
35. Tree of tranquility harvest moon
36. blue boy chocolates 3x
37. wine 3x
38. hipper iphone cover
39. iphone apps the best
40. computer??
41. Mother/daughter beading kit grownup kind
42. um, elf/faerie gear etsy/secret garden door esp.
43. oil (case for Honda Eclipse)
44. Exercise Bra
45. garnet-type red earrings from ETSY for red clothes

Daily checklist:

1/2 at work computer on livestrong and timer– not until noon, but YES!

1. Cardio 45 minutes– not yet
2. check weight– YES!
3. Oats or yogurt/toast/fruit (appx. 10am)– YES! Yogurt 140kcals
4. Frozen Dinner (appx 1pm) Amy’s chili cornbread–YES!–340kcals
5. Count calories–YES!– 578 thus far today
6. 100kcal protein snack 4pmYES– Vitatop cranbran (plus 1/2C coke)=728kcal sbtl
7. 300 kcal dinner (ONLY) (although I should theoretically have 500kcal–800kcals left for dinner and snack–YES!!!-1488kcals total for day–just barley
8. 100 kcal snack (ONLY)–included w/above 1488kcals was 1 tlc bar
9. Count calories 1200–1500 total–YES 1488kcals
10. Brush teeth/mouthpiece– nothing after 7pm–YES!!

THEN I would without a doubt lose weight.

B-List (for better and faster)

1. Weights no
2. Stairs 2x
3. Vitamins YES! multi- B-12 and fish oil
4. Get to grocery– YES, Last night
5. Colon cleanse/activia nope
6. No pop/ NOOOO fast food– argh I had about 1/2 cup of coke
7. No processed carbs***** hmm, guess this is okay, except for sugar in yogurt ans tlc bar????
8. Little/no meats–Yes–vgie all day
9. AbRocket  –no
10. C/P/F= carbs/Protein/Fat ratio should be: 40/30/30, or 40/40/20, or even 50/30/20, but mine is usually carb heavy and protein light. Keep an eye on this.  more lie 60/25/15 rats

1. TAke THE RED and GREEN Grocery BAGS IN!!!!!!
2. apples
3. 1 fruit fresh like strawberries
4. whole wheat pita (OR wraps, NOT both)
5. sweet potatoes 4x
6. broccoli fresh 1 head
7. org. cookies for Mary AND ME
8. Hummus–good kind only
   
9. Tomatoes
10. organic shredded parmesan
11. other white cheese
12. whole wheat soft tortillas
13. whole wheat pita
14. spelt bread
15. 2x yogurts
16. blueberries
17. apricots (canned organic or fresh) just 2 or so
18. bananas
19. dried tomatoes (but not co-op kind)
20. brown cow yogurt
21. skinny cow fudgesicles
22. snap peas for dip
23. frozen strawberries
24. 1 green org. cookable fresh vegetable (only after Wednesday and broccoli and kale are gone)
25. Smart balance for work
26. some kind of org. cookies STILL AGAIN MORE!!!!
27. broccoli rabbe (at co-op only)
28. cream rinse
29. carrots (org.)
30. garlic (jar)
31. soy sauce
32. Amy’s Enchilada with Spanish rice and Beans
33. CAt food dog food
34. Milk–2x
35. olive oil
36. chai tea (good kind)
37. sour cream (either fat free or plain yogur–small)
38. shredded cheese
39. one taco seasoning packet (or try co-op kind)
40. one lettuce (small as I can)
41. Frozen mixed veggies
42. snacks for pantry??? (100 kcal popcorn packs?)
43. Round Steak (butcher)

Daily checklist:

1/2 at work computer on livestrong and timer– YES!

1. Cardio 45 minutes–
2. check weight– YES!– 156.20
3. Oats or yogurt/toast/fruit (appx. 10am)
4. Frozen Dinner (appx 1pm)
5. Count calories
6. 100kcal protein snack 4pm
7. 300 kcal dinner (ONLY)
8. 100 kcal snack (ONLY)
9. Count calories 1200–1500 total
10. Brush teeth/mouthpiece– nothing after 7pm

THEN I would without a doubt lose weight.

B-List (for better and faster)

1. Weights
2. Stairs
3. Vitamins
4. Get to grocery– need organic string cheese and some of those cute little organic cookies and tomatoes and cantaloupe….
5. Colon cleanse/activia
6. No pop
7. No processed carbs*****
8. Little/no meats
9. AbRocket
10. C/P/F= carbs/Protein/Fat ratio should be: 40/30/30, or 40/40/20, or even 50/30/20, but mine is usually carb heavy and protein light. Keep an eye on this.
11. 154 something by 9.26.09 (without going back up!!!!)

Daily checklist:

1/2 at work computer on livestrong and timer– YES!

1. Cardio 45 minutes–
2. check weight– YES! 154.70
3. Oats or yogurt/toast/fruit (appx. 10am)
4. Frozen Dinner (appx 1pm)
5. Count calories
6. 100kcal protein snack 4pm
7. 300 kcal dinner (ONLY)
8. 100 kcal snack (ONLY)
9. Count calories 1200–1500 total
10. Brush teeth/mouthpiece– nothing after 7pm

THEN I would without a doubt lose weight.

B-List (for better and faster)

1. Weights
2. Stairs
3. Vitamins
4. Get to grocery– need organic string cheese and some of those cute little organic cookies and tomatoes and cantaloupe….
5. Colon cleanse/activia
6. No pop
7. No processed carbs*****
8. Little/no meats
9. AbRocket
10. C/P/F= carbs/Protein/Fat ratio should be: 40/30/30, or 40/40/20, or even 50/30/20, but mine is usually carb heavy and protein light. Keep an eye on this.
11. 154 something by 9.26.09 (without going back up!!!!)