Let the wild rumpus start!

So, Saturday I ate at Mom’s– a delicious meal and really, really healthy– beets, ham, sweet potatoes, etc. etc. I was pretty proud of this meal.

However, I overate in the evening because there was chocolate on top of the fridge and I had some cheese.

On Sunday I ate at our house and Brian made some Salmon Chowder and some egg salad and I made some clean cornbread. Again I was pretty proud of myself

However, on Monday I had popcorn and coke and LOTs and LOTs of reese’s pieces when I went to see the Alvin and the Chipmunks (the Squeakuel– lovely movie by the way).

• Sunday I worked out 30 minutes;
• Monday I worked out a hard 45 minutes;
• Tuesday I worked out 45 minutes on elliptical, treadmill, and rowing machine (but not too hard on any single one).

It’s very sickening to work so hard on all the pieces and then not be able to control the binging enough to make it worth it!!!!

WHat can I do about this!!

Addendum (1/21/10– Thursday) Seeing the same thing later in the week. Wednesday night I was pretty much on track, but then 3/4 C of macaroni and cheese 870 calories or some sh** like that. Rats!

I’m working on my own little supposition (entirely non-factual): that it takes 3 days for the food that goes into my mouth to become part of me. So, after I eat 870 extra calories on Wednesday, the damage will show up about Saturday. Any good I do for myself on Thursday won’t show up until Sunday. It’s all about delayed satisfaction, which is not my forte. I’m good for today as long as I don’t go over, um, 700-800 kcals. Would be also very nice if I could work out in 15 minute intervals….

Today I’m thinking about fear and how ridiculous it is in my life and how much I would like to get rid of it.

And the thought that love is the anti-fear. Hmmm, what a drag it is that I can’t internalize this more. Shame on me for that weakness.

There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear. -I John 4:18

“The single most important decision any of us will ever make is whether or not to believe the universe is friendly.”     Albert Einstein

so I watched the

Biggest Loser marathon yesterday (hours and hours of it).

The words of wisdom I gleaned from that were:

my mind will control my body; I’m sick of it being the other way around.

• seasoned pepper Babbs
• grapes(organic) Co-op
• craisins Babbs
• lactaid (2x)Babbs or Co-op
• dried tomatoes (not in oil) Babbs or Marsh
• green thing (after the spinach is gone….) use spinach
• soup bones (for Dog)– Babbs or March
• lactaid
• milk
• coffee filters
• cat food
• lactaid fat free
• puppy food
• beets
• hoosier honey
• tortillas?? make? can’t find 100% whole grain ones
• rutabaga
• or turnip
• or parsnip
• or squash
• kale or mustard greens (2 batches)
• raisins–co-op 2 qty.
• prunes
• morton salt iodized
• italian seasoning bulk co-op
• kleenex
• natural dishwasher soap co-op
• string cheese (white organic from co-op)
• kleenex
• sauerkraut– try rinsing and boiling in H2O for a little bit and try with
• vegetarian sausage and onions
• fat free cottage cheese
• B-12
• Mayonnaise
• tomatoes (any kind fresh)
• mushrooms (fresh)
• tic tacs
• dish detergent
• jelly (all fruit)
• coffee
• butter (smart balance (Lite?))
• saltines
• BETTER than boullion
• parmesan cheese (block is cheaper)
• grapes
• jelly (not sugar free)
• Nuts only a few
• hummus
• solar salt
• kitty food
• dog food
• trash bags
• borax
• bleach
• Kitty litter!
• fingerling potatoes
• tangerines
• bananas
• blueberries
• iron pills

later to buyGet one item every $1000.00 that goes into the savings….

1.  exercize bra–DONE $5000.00
2. athletic socks– DONE $paid off car
3. black socks and brown socks and toe hose (Next on list at $1000.00)
4. merrills– Done $paid off car
5. bike exercizer thing for bri’s bike
6. bose speakers (the kind that block out other noise)
7. dremel diamond tool (the kind that will put holes in my glass)
8. olive oil spray bottle
9. RedHat linux
10. splitter for tv
11. 3-way plug adaptor
12. extension cord
13. new toshiba battery= DONE (@$3000.00 savings)
14. size 10 pants (10x?) for Mary=DONE (@$4000.00 savings)
15. real soup bones for puppy
16. mattress & box springs for Mary
17. Sprouting seeds (broccoli specifically) and sprouting hardware
18. USB (cute kind) for me to lug back and forth to and from work
19. download SQL software to laptop (or maybe to Stu’s new computer….)
20. homosote
21. expanding file for B-
22. coffee filters
23. trivet (etsy)–hmmm, from Marti?? take off??
24. rug for dining room elements?
25. automatice dishwasher soap
26. Cat food
27. Dog food
28. Bissell floor cleaner
29. USB– Johnny’s birthday ?????
30. um, blue air air filters
31. doggie conditioning shampoo
32. toe hose to wear with brown flats 6pr)
33. carpet/hardwood in bedrooms
34. straw
35. stone on drive
36. Colon cleanse
37. roof
38. septic (new finger)
39. doggies to vet
40. algae tablets
41. mighty dog dog food
42. tall kitchen trash bags
43. diastatis exercises http://www.maternalfitness.com/
44. um, toe hose for brown shoes
45. 4H Genealogy workbooks
46. Plat map for Liford county
47. gloves/scarf (on sale somewhere??? etsy??)
48. facial at mira
49. gas fireplace in basement
50. new college sweatshirts IU, UC, DePaul, etc.
51. schedule age intervention resurfacing facial)
52. B-12
53. Dehumidifier
54. DNA Testing for Mary and Me and Brian and whoever else :); the expensive version
55. solar salt
56. kitty food
57. dog food
58. trash bags
59. borax
60. bleach
61. Kitty Litter
62. razors
63. actifed and?or benadryl
64. iron pills–done
65. String of pearls
66. toaster oven
67. medium sized pick– to dig in secret garden